The days bright as can be, nights at ease with the heat? Yep, its Summer....

My excitement for Summer is as strong as a freshly sparked wildfire that is far from extingish. It seems that everything is going so fast and yet slow. Studies have whinned down, and preparation for the next year are already at hand. But it lookes like that will stop long enough for 3 months worth enjoyment. Of course with excitments, comes a taste of bitter regret for me. I wasn't exactly good this year with my ecodidamics and well, I feel that I've learned alittle more about myself this year then the last. Its odd really. To think of how I started and then see in a mirror how I am now. I can't help be compare and contrast myself. Its silly, but at the same time pleasent. It appears that I have changed quite alot then from last fall. Truely I have. I used to be such a quite stubborn girl back then. Along with depressing. But now, I'm more expressive in my feelings, and I'm not afraid to be different. In fact, I find normal quite odd. Ha ha, guess there really isn't such a thing called "Normal". Its just a simple mock of the unordinary.

Not only is the smell of lilacs and honey buzzing through my senses, but the brush of romance simply can't help but touch my skin. Romance loves to pick on me from time to time. Unfortanatly for love, I don't like that much. It always seems like something is wrong with me and love. Hmph, love and me go together like a flower in Antartica. Everytime a try to get a stroke rather then a brush, love bits me hard and coldly. Leaving a mark on my wild heart. Still, it seems love is fond of Summer. As am I. Perhaps this feeling will let us understand each other better and be on better terms.

The life of a hostess and thrilling parties scream for attantion in my future for this Summer. Unfortanatly for my ears, I will have no choice in this options. You may be thinking that that's better then my summer vacation, but actually, when you've gone to as many parties as I have, drunken weekends and awful pains over everything is second nature, or better said, second hand. Though for some odd reason, I'm looking forward to it. Beside the fact of terrible mornings, the night life is thrilling in oh so many ways. I truely enjoy the music humming under my feet, guiding my body to the right swaying and drifting in dancing. The wonderful food that only fuel to our endless plessure. All of this is so common and so natural to me that I've grown to accept it. Little by little. What's more plesent, is the good memories that I gain from parties. The sweet laughter of jokes told among friends, the tousts that hold meaning, and the oh so enjoying flirtatious behevior among boys and girl friends. Yes, these are the memories of the nights I truely enjoy looking back at. The memory of me enjoying myself to the fullest to the depts of the night, that is a memory that will stay in my heart and will always linger in my summer night dreams...

As you can see, this summer, for me, will be for sure a summer to remember. Just like the rest of the years past Summers. Good or bad, this year, my summer will be glued to my heart in some special way. I know it. I feel it. Like the blistering sun hovering above our joyful expressions of Summer. Summer of 2008...